System of the aleins in the ship from planet becki





nobody
nobody is really sombody becase everyone is really somebody. but nobody is nobody special and nobody impiticular but still somebody in the long run.
BKI
presenter/ mask/android
Presenter, sort of a medium,
sometimes aware of what is happening inside and can co-exist with the other ego states but lacks the detail, emotion and point of view perspective. sometimes has no clue what is going on inside, focuse is on outside stuff and hapenings and avoids dealing with "self". Tries to maintain an "outward image" or normalcy for work and other situations.


Hero fighter/ ISH (internal self helper)
Has a focus on healing, self-discovery, self-help readings. Has an almost motherly like nature toward the other ego states attempting to comfort, encourage and guide.


drill srg.

in charge of cleaning duties, bills and finances, exercise and other things that need a "just get up and do it now" attitude. jumps in and does the repair work after things have fallen to pieces around the house and things just seem too far gone to ever get back. hard and cold to the emotions of the other ego states and often a very critical voice that sometimes resembles that of my mother and grandmother, but gets things back on track. handles allot of the things that are "just to stressful" for the other parts

others:
tom :
paterened after my brother. dresses up like a sexy woman and tries to get men's attention. believes that we only deserve to serve the pleasure of men. also holds brothers idealism and racism beliefs and belives that people that are not useful do not deserve to live.

Rebecca
angry
13, angry came out just as the sexual abuse was reported so the memories of the abuse were not really there. dealt withall the aftermath, the teasing at school, her mothers attitudes and disbelief, also the one that is usaly suicidal. and will often act out with saying stuff like "you don't care, so I don't either" and "I don't need anybody, fucking leave me alone"
Rebeka

perfectionist
16 yrs old, big in the church, but very legalistic, very proud of all the "good deeds" she has done. the bible study she led, the soup kitchens she has volunteered at, the mission trips... etc etc .. has a really "goodie goodie" image and will proudly display the WWJD and other church paraphernalia
Kwristeen

"bad"
likes the "dark" image, likes the gothic clubs and anything dark. the rebel, polar opposite of Rebeka. 19 yrs old, came out alot in college when some people were calling us demon possesed. is likly to be one involved in any "acting out", cuting, sex, and other "bad" self-harming behaviors. was the result of Rebeka's imperfect perfection. also is in charge of pushing hurtful people away, mainly hurtful church people. memories from the past include watching horror movies with dad when 6yrs old. usually gets triggered when scared of something, expessialy sexual tention situations, take on an "ok with that" attitude to hide other fears.

Chamel
fearful.
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8-11, the hurt child that was looking for a way out of the abuse but wasn't brave enough to report it. holds alot of fear and deep emotions. usaly wants to be huged and held, very insecure. usaly hiding. is non-verbal, will use signlanguage or write short answers to questions.. quickly walks away from any scarry or dangerous places started isolating in the 4th grade, withdrawing from her friends, feeling not good enough to be a part of the group.


little Chamel
playful
wants to be loved, someone special, tries hard to be cute and loved.


4-8, wanted her father to lover her, wanted anyone to lover her. wanted to know that she was ok, needs lots of aproval. usaly wants to be huged and held, very insecure. sometime found sitting with hand to face as if wanting to suck on thumb or blankie, but knowing she would be in trouble if she did. has a hard time talking about her feeling. quickly walks away from any scarry or dangerous places.


Rebecca Becki Suzanne
inocent. playful

wants to be loves and special. tries to be cute and adorable
tenderhearted
4, the little one. became a seperate being just as the sexual abuse started. at her 5th b-day party she said " i don't want to turn 5, i want to stay 4 forever, and so was the moment she stuck in. she loves kids songs and will often "tattle" on some of the others inside.
others:
bad girl:

always feels as if she has done something wrong again and deserves to be punished for something. somes out whenever feels like in trouble. stays around untill some sign that we still ok, or not in trouble any more, still loved. sometimes plays games with loved ones to see if still loved. other times abandons all hope of love and isolates self to avoid contaminating the good worldwith her bad self. usaly trigered by being called a name.. anything like selfish, rude, anoying..ect... any sort of persived crisem or judgment punishment or dislike
crazy girl:
belives that we are crazy like ppl said we are and often has large stories about seeing things
hiden girl:
hides in places so dark that you can't see a hand right in frount of you. does so, so that we can't tell that we really exist. or hide so that we can't be found. usaly out when really really scared.