This mornings words

This morning... the differnce beween 3am at mt. zion vs the 3am here.... well spiritual position difference.... at mt. zion i placed myself in Gods hands compleatly and just listened to what He had to say and wrote it down, alowing Him to pick the topics and guide the conversation. here i talk to God and half hazerdly alow His hand to guide my thoughts to where He wants to speak to me... here God's hand leads me, but greater it was there when i was in God's hand compleatly. When im only following God's hand the temptaion is there to try to force and direct His hand to what I want. it is simply not as effective.
one of the challenges God is giving me right now is to find deeper security in Him and trust Him more. sin is simply defined as missing the perfect mark. the root of sin is not trusting God and the modivation for sin is trying to find security outside of God. its not a list of rules of right and wrong, its about drawing closer to where God is. seeking Him, desiring to be where He is. if we are not there yet, we can ask God to fill us with that desire. we have not because we ask not. ask and it will be given to you, seek and you shall find, knock on Gods door and He will answer. i used to feel like i was tryimg to force God to love me, to earn my way into His love like some adopted child that just was hard to love. i kept seeking God, i asked Him boldly if i was His child ... He answered with His love. He showed me things i couldnt learn from a book or have anyone else teach me. seek Him. seek first the kingdom of heaven and God's rightousness, then all these things that we Need will be added... even what we didnt know that we needed... and God will strip away the things we thought we needed but only trip us up and hinder our veiw of Him.