A little about me and my Blog.

i consider journal writing/bloging theriputic. it is also a historical record of events in my life. it exist purly for my own benifit. i do alow others to see it that i trust only for the reason that they might better understand me or relate to something and have it help on some level on the road of life.

i am also working on my personal memroir on webook.com and my journal recordings assist me to tell as compleate of a story as possible. i am not looking for fame or sypathy or anything else that may be evoked in a person who reads my writings. The only way i would hope my writing wouuld effect others is that it will give them a sence that they are not alone, and hopefuly encorage them to keep on puting on foot in frount of another.

God has recently given me a vision of how to help others that have been though abuse. "Hope and Healing" was started in 2001 as on online suport group for abuse survivors, it is being tranformed in to a actual place on earth instead of in cyber space.

Wednesday, August 1, 2012

Stop fliping out.

Ive survived worse so i guess i should just not worry so much about not being able to pull out of each emotional spiral... start to trust that God will catch me everytime. trust in a logical and not emotional way. still that dosnt really make the emorional space much easier. idk. so ready to just withdraw from the world, but maybe that would be a good thing. maybe relationships were never ment to work out for me. maybe im just in that emotional funk when nothing seems like it will ever be right just so i learn to trust God more. and maybe if i stoped fighting Him, He would help me get there faster. and maybe i shouldnt consider restructuring my life plans and all my relationships when im in a bad mood. im just sick of the bad moods. but i guess thats like being sick of breathing stinky air... it just has to happen sometimes... so if i practice acceptance of such things as a part of life, maybe i will not get as wacked out about every little thing. maybe its up to God and not up to me to lable or unlable things as hopeless and maybe i should trust that He sees and knows more than i do. maybe someday He will change me enough so that ppl dont see me as such a hopeless cause. maybe. someday. Sent with Verizon Mobile Email
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